Deepest Conversation

Salutations. I'm a family and friends kind of person. I don't ask much from a friend. I'm a dreamer cause that's my sanctuary. I thrive under nail polish and shades. I'm an extrovert but I keep my feelings to myself. Whatever is written here is to be read between the lines.
God Bless

Monday, September 27, 2010 @ 4:57 PM

Neglection

I'm going back to where I came from ♥

Labels: : I feel safe here.

A touch of black widow

Thursday, August 05, 2010 @ 11:45 PM

"yes, i get it you hate your life, blah blah blah, here's a pen knife, wanna get over it or do you want to cut yourself silly and cry cause you're bleeding?"

A touch of black widow

Saturday, July 31, 2010 @ 10:26 PM

Henry David Thoreau

We must have infinite faith in each other.
If we have not, we must never let it leak out that we have not.

My body has finally given up cause it caught of with my mentality and is very exhausted. my body can't take too much of what my mind can and now i feel like poop cause my body ain't doing so good and my mind is really just moving on.

Quotes always make me feel better ♥

Labels: Where'd you go? I miss you so.

A touch of black widow

Friday, July 30, 2010 @ 10:26 PM

Just thought

Just cause I smile and look happy, that doesn't mean I don't cry myself to sleep at night.

Labels: maybe you'd like to know.

A touch of black widow

Sunday, July 25, 2010 @ 11:08 PM

It ain't easy

Tomorrow's a new day. Let the recent past stay where it's meant to be cause it's hard enough for us to pretend we're fine when we know we're not. Make each day count, make each day special cause you know we only live once. A thousand thoughts swarming in my mind at a time. I don't have all the solutions to all the problems but I'm trying my best. I'm sorry if my best isn't the best it's suppose to be but I'm still trying. Give me time.

Labels: but we can't stop.

A touch of black widow

Monday, July 19, 2010 @ 10:46 PM

Journey

The salty smell of the ocean, the grains of sand sinking onto my feet, the rush of the afternoon breeze on my face and the sound of only my voice - screaming to God to take it all go away and pray hard that all the good times last as long as they once did. If I were a better human being, I would've done my part to make all of you happy and not be oblivious to your problems. I don't know what else I can do to tell you or show you that I'm there for all of you. take me for granted for all I care - just don't leave me in the dark. I'm a social person, I yearn only for communication.

I wrote a little note for you, it's on the coffee table. my begs are packed,I'm ready to leave but don't get out of bed cause I know who she is.

Labels: Faithfully.

A touch of black widow

Saturday, July 17, 2010 @ 8:33 PM

An entry of happiness and misery

Look, it's only between Ali and I. I don't care as much if he tells anyone cause I know myself and that's good enough. so please, stop taking sides and making it so awkward to talk in class. so things between Ali and I are over, so? it's not like I'm going to quit school and stop contacting any of you. besides, we weren't even together to begin with. I wish him all the best in his endeavors, ninjutsu and as well as his mom. I hope she's doing well. I'll talk to him when I'm ready and when I think he is as well. give it time, it'll be fine. I knew being friends was way better and to make it clear, I did not use or played with his heart. I told him from the start, he gave himself hope.

Alright moving on, this week was a long roller coaster ride to chaos and havoc. I learnt a lot via academic and relationship with friends. life's going on track and alhamdullilah to that(: I don't know how to express the feeling of always feeling second best (?) Alicia, you make it hard for me to get close to you cause you don't see all the things I do for you and it hurts. I feel used, you don't mean it cause you don't intentionally do it. I love you and I care a lot about you, I just hope you think of me at the least. I just feel like a spare tyre with you :\ but I'm happy as long as you're happy even if it's not with me(: I know I've been going on about Drama friends but somehow, at times, I feel left out (?) reasons why I should stop listening to my heart sometimes. I'll be fine tomorrow cause tomorrow is a new day which makes today, yesterday(:

ps; love to Irra, you're awesome today :D

pps; love to Lutfil, think with your heart not with your mind :D

Labels: I want to crawl into your arms.

A touch of black widow

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Monday, September 27, 2010 @ 4:57 PM Neglection I'm going back to where I came from ♥ Labels: : I feel safe here. A touch of black widow
Thursday, August 05, 2010 @ 11:45 PM "yes, i get it you hate your life, blah blah blah, here's a pen knife, wanna get over it or do you want to cut yourself silly and cry cause you're bleeding?" A touch of black widow
Saturday, July 31, 2010 @ 10:26 PM Henry David Thoreau We must have infinite faith in each other. If we have not, we must never let it leak out that we have not. My body has finally given up cause it caught of with my mentality and is very exhausted. my body can't take too much of what my mind can and now i feel like poop cause my body ain't doing so good and my mind is really just moving on. Quotes always make me feel better ♥ Labels: Where'd you go? I miss you so. A touch of black widow
Friday, July 30, 2010 @ 10:26 PM Just thought Just cause I smile and look happy, that doesn't mean I don't cry myself to sleep at night. Labels: maybe you'd like to know. A touch of black widow
Sunday, July 25, 2010 @ 11:08 PM It ain't easy Tomorrow's a new day. Let the recent past stay where it's meant to be cause it's hard enough for us to pretend we're fine when we know we're not. Make each day count, make each day special cause you know we only live once. A thousand thoughts swarming in my mind at a time. I don't have all the solutions to all the problems but I'm trying my best. I'm sorry if my best isn't the best it's suppose to be but I'm still trying. Give me time. Labels: but we can't stop. A touch of black widow
Monday, July 19, 2010 @ 10:46 PM Journey The salty smell of the ocean, the grains of sand sinking onto my feet, the rush of the afternoon breeze on my face and the sound of only my voice - screaming to God to take it all go away and pray hard that all the good times last as long as they once did. If I were a better human being, I would've done my part to make all of you happy and not be oblivious to your problems. I don't know what else I can do to tell you or show you that I'm there for all of you. take me for granted for all I care - just don't leave me in the dark. I'm a social person, I yearn only for communication. I wrote a little note for you, it's on the coffee table. my begs are packed,I'm ready to leave but don't get out of bed cause I know who she is. Labels: Faithfully. A touch of black widow
Saturday, July 17, 2010 @ 8:33 PM An entry of happiness and misery Look, it's only between Ali and I. I don't care as much if he tells anyone cause I know myself and that's good enough. so please, stop taking sides and making it so awkward to talk in class. so things between Ali and I are over, so? it's not like I'm going to quit school and stop contacting any of you. besides, we weren't even together to begin with. I wish him all the best in his endeavors, ninjutsu and as well as his mom. I hope she's doing well. I'll talk to him when I'm ready and when I think he is as well. give it time, it'll be fine. I knew being friends was way better and to make it clear, I did not use or played with his heart. I told him from the start, he gave himself hope. Alright moving on, this week was a long roller coaster ride to chaos and havoc. I learnt a lot via academic and relationship with friends. life's going on track and alhamdullilah to that(: I don't know how to express the feeling of always feeling second best (?) Alicia, you make it hard for me to get close to you cause you don't see all the things I do for you and it hurts. I feel used, you don't mean it cause you don't intentionally do it. I love you and I care a lot about you, I just hope you think of me at the least. I just feel like a spare tyre with you :\ but I'm happy as long as you're happy even if it's not with me(: I know I've been going on about Drama friends but somehow, at times, I feel left out (?) reasons why I should stop listening to my heart sometimes. I'll be fine tomorrow cause tomorrow is a new day which makes today, yesterday(: ps; love to Irra, you're awesome today :D pps; love to Lutfil, think with your heart not with your mind :D Labels: I want to crawl into your arms. A touch of black widow